Overdepression…

Yesterday, i’ve just realized something that i was supposed to know a long time ago. Everything is worthless. Life is a stupid piece of ****, a boring chess game with us as the pawns. It doesnt even worth living. I lived as if i was dying. I tried to feel happy or acted as if i was happy, but then again, it didnt worth it. Everything has long disappointed me. What was supposed to be fun isnt fun anymore. I give up. I give up on life, on everything. I dont care crap about anything anymore. For now, i just want to end dis ****.

Part of myself dont want to see any of my friends. Part of my mind wants to cut my wrist or hang myself in the bathroom. I want to cry but then again, i have to hold it back. I tried to distract myself by doing hw, but then it only made it worse.

Srry… but im so depressed rite now that i cant stop myself from blogging my own feelings and thoughts. I’ll try to blog something nice next time, or is there gonna be a next time?

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